Of Jung Yonghwa's Current Situation


It's been a while.

A lot has happened in between the days that I was inactive. One of the more recent happenings was CNBLUE's Jung Yonghwa's current situation.

According to the reports, Yonghwa 'cheated' his way to getting into Kyunghee University for a higher education degree (I'm still not sure if it's master's or PhD) just so he can avoid or maybe delay army enlistment.

I'm going to be really honest and say that I didn't really read up much on this issue. Mainly because I don't want to get myself too caught up in the subject. I don't want to become too invested. I want to believe that I've graduated from that phase in my BOICE life. 

So, I am here to just give my personal opinion on the matter.

I can tell that Yonghwa's going through a really rough time in his life right now. Being a fan since 2010, I've practically went through my twenties with CNBLUE beside me. I've watched them during their rookie days until now that they've finally made a name for themselves. I've been supporting them for 8 years already and I'm not going to stop now. I may not be one of those super passionate fans who follow their lives religiously and knew all their schedules and upcoming gigs or whatever. But I am that fan who will always, always feel affected whenever something happens to them, be it a good one or a bad one.

But with that said, I also don't want to be that fan who will blindly worship a celebrity. In all honesty, I don't see the need to defend Yonghwa from all of his bashers especially now with this current 'scandal' going on. I find it a waste of time and energy. I'd rather support Yonghwa and give him encouraging words and pray that he may find the strength to do what is right.

I'm not saying he's innocent nor am I saying he's guilty because that is for the proper authorities to figure out. I am just a fan who believes in Yonghwa. I hold on to the hope that everything will be sorted out and soon this fiasco will be over.

If he's innocent, then I hope the truth immediately comes out to clear his name and stop further hate from being thrown his way. Seriously, the hate he's getting is crazy. I cannot even begin to imagine how he's dealing right now. I hope he finds strength to hang in there even more.

If he's guilty, well I believe that there's a reason for every decision he has made. Of course, the saying "the end does not justify the means" still stays true so I hope he reflects and deal with the consequences of his decision the best way possible. I believe in second chances as well so I will believe in Yonghwa even if he did made a wrong decision this time.


I just hope everything goes well in the end because although I am trying to not invest too much emotion in this issue, I can't help but feel sadness and hurt each time I'll come across negative comments about Yonghwa.

Yonghwa, we believe in you.

My Dad's Favorite Song

It's no secret that our family loves karaoke nights. Even my mom, whom I never heard sing in my entire twenty five years of living, enjoys listening to me, my sister, and my dad sing our hearts out. Every time we'd get together and enjoy sing-along nights, it was so much fun.

My dad loved singing. Every time he starts holding a microphone, he can sing for hours. And he was actually good at it. Actually, I think my sister got her talent in singing from our dad.

My most memorable song of him was Beautiful in My Eyes. My dad tried to perfect that song before. He'd keep on singing the same song over and over again until I'm getting pretty tired of hearing it. Now each time I hear that song playing, I will instantly, instantly think of my dad.


I was really close to my dad more than my mom before when I was still young. He'd always been my savior during times when mom was scolding me. I was daddy's little girl back then. There was actually a time when I thought my dad favors me more than my younger sister. But that was just me.

"When I and my mother will disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Yeah, yeah, then finally make me do just what my mama says"

But during college, we grew apart. A lot of things happened and I had these crazy issues about our family, about him. I got so angry at him. It was just... unbelievable. That hatred I allowed to consume me. It was unnecessary. It was immature. And just before he died, I was avoiding him. I wasn't talking to him. And I regret that. A lot.

If dad was still alive, he'd probably be so caught up in playing with my sister's one year old daughter, his granddaughter. He loves children and the children love him. He's a really warm, kind-hearted old man. Everyone loves him.

It's been three years now, and this Sunday it's going to be Father's Day. Sadly, we won't have our dad to celebrate that special day with.

I feel sad thinking of all the major events in my life that he'll be missing. I wanted him to approve of the guy I would love and would eventually marry. I wanted him to walk me down the aisle on the biggest day of my life. I wanted him to see my future kids and watch them grow up. I wanted to travel the world with him and mom. I want to finally buy him his own car. I want him and mom to enjoy the simple life, not worrying about what bills to pay.


I miss my dad. A lot. Especially now, with everything that is happening in my life. With all the thoughts that's running through my mind. I wish he was still here. I wish I can still talk to him and tell him how confused and scared I am. I wish he would be here to tell me that's everything's going to be okay.

I'm just emotional right now for no reason.

[LYRICS] He Is We - Blame It On The Rain

You, got me caught in all this mess.
I guess, we can blame it on the rain.
My pain is knowing I can’t have you,
I can’t have you.

Tell me does she look at you the way I do,
Try to understand the words you say,
and the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush,
When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me am I crazy, or is this more than a crush?

I catch my breath,
The one you took the moment you entered the room.
My heart, it breaks at the thought of her holding you.

Does she look at you the way I do,
Try to understand the words you say,
and the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush,
When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me am I crazy, or is this more than a crush?
(Is it more than a crush?)

Maybe I’m alone in this,
But I find peace in solitude knowing,
If I had but just one kiss this whole room,
Would be glowing.
We’d be glowing,
We’d be glowing.

Does she, tell me, does she look at you the way I do,
Try to understand the words you say,
and the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush,
When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me am I crazy, or is this more than a crush?
(More than a crush)

Does she, tell me, does she look at you the way I do,
Try to understand the words you say,
and the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush,
When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me am I crazy, or is this more than a crush?
(More than a crush)

Does she look at you the way I do,
Try to understand the words you say,
and the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush,
When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me am I crazy, or is this more than a crush?

Tell me does she look at you the way I do,
Try to understand the words you say,
and the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush,
When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me am I crazy, or is this more than a crush?



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