Gogumas and Dooleys


I've been a Yongseo fan before. I've watched all their WGM episodes and spazzed like crazy. But that was before. Maybe about 2 years ago. I won't deny, they look really good together. I mean, they're both good-looking and very talented. It's like they complement each other in one way or another. I remember before how I was thinking that these two should really date for real. But then they're really awkward most of the times. Sometimes, it gets a little painful to watch because Seohyun is like relying on Yonghwa a lot. Just my opinion, okay?


I've never been a shipper of Yonghwa-Shinhye couple. No reason, really. Just, I was too absorbed with Yongseo, I guess. But I've watched Heartstrings before, but I didn't get to finish it though. Anyway, I just noticed the chemistry between Yonghwa and Shinhye. They really look good together as well. And I can feel how at ease the two of them are with each other. I like them better now. Because they seem like the best of friends. They're cute. And comfortable. I like them both.

So yeah. All these shipping wars, I don't think they're necessary. And besides, it's still Yonghwa's choice in the end. He'll either choose Seohyun or Shinhye. Or probably a different lady. Who knows?

Peace? Anyone?

Happy 25th Birthday Jung Yonghwa


It's almost Yonghwa's birthday!

Happy 25th Birthday Jung Yonghwa~ !!

All BOICEs and Emotional Angels are going to trend #WorldStarJYH25Bday later and I don't think I can stay up that late 'cos I have work tomorrow. I'm actually already feeling sleepy while typing.

So, to make up with for that, I will instead dedicate this post to the dorkiest and most charming leader of CNBLUE, Jung Yonghwa!


Here's the 12 Reason Why I Love Yonghwa:

1. I love it every time I see Yonghwa's gummy smile. It's just so genuine. ツ
2. I love Yonghwa's wink.
3. I love how sexy his eye mole is and how cute his crooked tooth is.
4. I love how he always takes care of his CNBLUE dongsaengs.
5. But I also love how he's always playful and childish.
6. I love how adorkable and funny he is.
7. I love it every time he belts out those high notes.
8. I love how he interacts with the crowd during every performance.
9. I love his perfect nose bridge and seriously sexy jawline.
10. I love how competitive he is each time he's on variety shows.
11. I love hearing his Engrish skills. 
12. I love everything about him~!!

And then here's my 12 Wishes for Yonghwa:

1. I wish for you to grow even more closer with the other members.
2. I wish for you and CNBLUE to do more albums and concerts in the future.
3. I wish for FNC to continue trusting your talent and let you release more self-composed songs.
4. I wish for more opportunities for you to show and develop your acting skills.
5. I wish you'll appear more on variety shows, especially Running Man. ツ
6. I wish for you to get more hosting gigs. 
7. I wish that whatever problems you face, you'll grow stronger and never give up.
8. I wish for you to continue having a healthy body, mind, and soul.
9. I wish that you'll continue to feel the love and support of your fans everywhere.
10. I wish for you to continue doing good music and enjoying it as well.
11. I wish for you to find your true happiness.
12. I wish for your heart to find its happiness as well, whoever that girl is. ♡

I am just one of the many other people loving and supporting you. I've tried my best to always be with you, through all the laughters and tears, happiness and sadness, struggles and wins. I don't and will never regret supporting and loving you. Your existence has made the lives of many people so much more happier. Continue being you~ being adorkable, funny, lively, charming, sincere, passionate.. I am anticipating  another 25 years of being your Emotional Angel.

Thank you for being a good hyung and leader to CNBLUE.
Thank you for sharing your passion, talents and love for music.
Thank you for appreciating the love of BOICEs and Emotional Angels.
Thank you for giving me a reason to feel so much more happier every day.
Thank you for being YOU.

Happy 25th Birthday Yonghwa~

Yonghwa at Blue Moon Manila


I know I'm supposed to stop fangirl-ing Yonghwa. I made a promise. But.. But.... But it's so HARD!! I can't stop thinking about Yonghwa and I still can't get over Blue Moon Manila. It's been 5 days already. But it seems like Blue Moon Manila was just yesterday. I can still imagine Yonghwa "dancing" and shoulder-poppin' to Intuition. I still remember how Jonghyun said "sabay sabay" and how cute it sounded. And Minhyuk expressing his love for lechon and jeepneys. Lastly, I can't get over Jungshin chingoo and his dorky and playful attitude on stage and his "Philippines daebak" expresssion.


It was just 5 days ago when I've finally gotten to see CNBLUE perform live.

I've waited 3 years before finally seeing them in person.

Dreams really do come true!

Now, I am going to patiently wait for their return to Manila.

We'll meet again, Yonghwa! Soon. ^.^

Comfort Food for the Rainy Days

It's the rainy season once again! Time for the cold nights, drizzly mornings, warm cup of coffee, and staying on my comfy bed just a bit longer.  And what's the perfect addition to my rainy day? Comfort food! I love champorado with tuyo (dried salty fish) and chicken sopas!

There is just something warm and familiar with the smell and sound of rain. It makes me feel happier.

I love rainy days! Do you too?

Blue Moon in Manila


How do I even begin this fan account? Yesterday was craaaazy! I went home really tired but it was all worth it. Finally seeing the boys perform live in front of me is truly a dream come true.

The concert was scheduled to start at 8:00PM while gates open at 6:00PM. I decided to go to Araneta Coliseum earlier just to be sure and not worry about being stuck in traffic. So I arrived around 3:00PM. 

I lined up at around 4:00PM and yes they did open the gates at exactly 6:00 so I stood and waited in line for approximately 2 hours. Actually, that's nothing compared to how long I stood yesterday - 6 freaking hours!

So yes, when I entered the venue, we were still not allowed to enter the main coliseum. It seems like they're either fixing something or the boys are still on stage checking on something. Anyway, as I was waiting patiently outside the curtains, there was this one girl - I'd say she's probably a late high school or early college student - who suddenly went ballistic when she noticed her iPod / iPad was missing. Poor girl!

Moving on, finally we were allowed to enter and WOW! Just WOW! The first thing I noticed was that the stage was soooo near! I mean, really! It was an in-your-face kind of near. And I thought I chose a bad seat. I was wrong! It wasn't the best seat but it wasn't so bad either! I was still on the 4th row! (sorry 'bout the quality of the pictures, I just borrowed my friend's digicam since I was told dslr's are not allowed inside the venue, didn't have enough time to learn how to use it properly. T.T)

At first, I was like, even without the General Admission area, the venue still looks pretty big for CNBLUE to fill up. I was silently praying in my seat that more people would come and so CNBLUE wouldn't feel so bad.  And I guess my prayers were answered. I wasn't expecting such a huge crowd was going to watch their concert! I feel like a proud momma! Kkkkkkkk~


Anyway, the concert started almost 8:30PM - so much for Filipino time. They did the intro. And OH MY GOSH! When the lights were turned off, everyone started screaming! I didn't scream though 'coz my scream sounded like that of a boy's. Ugh! Sucks to be me. Okay, moving on! So they started showing the intro video and then after you can see the boys' silhouette coming up from under the stage. I wonder how they did that. So yeah, as expected, more screaming erupted from the crowd! This is freakin' CNBLUE, guys! Finally, they are HERE! In Manila! Performing! OH. MY. GOSH! WHAT IS AIR??? KYAAAAAAAAAAA~

So their first song was Where You Are and since the entire song is in English, I was able to sing along to it. YONG HWA!!!! How do I even begin to describe how I felt that time?! The moment Yong Hwa came on stage and started singing I felt like I had been hit by a big yellow school bus! HOW AWESOME CAN YONG HWA GET? I mean, seriously! He is PERFECTION personified! Ugh! I can't believe such a handsome creature exists on this planet! YONG HWA, MARRY ME JUSEYOOOOOO~!!!

But seriously though, Yong Hwa is every bit the performer. He's clearly good at hyping up the crowd and keeping the energy high! His vocal control is undeniable as well. It really is different having to hear him belt out those high notes live. Whoever said Yong Hwa isn't a singer has got to be really DEAF or just plain insecure! And his HAIR! OH MY GOSH! I want to run my hands through his soft, bouncy hair. Kkkkkkk. His hair look so soft every time he does his hair flipping moves. Ugh! I think I just heard my ovaries exploded! /UGLY SOBBING/

My spot was nearer Jong Hyun and I have to admit there are times when I get so distracted by his BLINDING, GLOWING, MUSCULAR ARMS! Jong Hyun wearing sleeveless shirts should be declared ILLEGAL because they can be very distracting, seriously! Kkkkkkkk~ OMG! I feel like a dying cheetah spazzing like crazy in my room right now. Every time I remember this day! Ugh! What have you done to me boys?! Give me back my sanity juseyooooooo~!!

Okay! Focus. Now I won't be enumerating all the songs they sung simply because I can't remember them all. But let me just say how every song is PERFECT! Seriously! YONG HWA, I LOVE YOU? DID I TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU YET? I LOVE YOU, OKAY? YES, I LOVE YOU, YONG HWA!!!

I was about to list down my favorite songs that they performed that night but while I was typing, I realized I actually love ALL of them!

I especially love the part where Min Hyuk, Jung Shin, and Jong Hyun, each had read out a sentence in Filipino about Yong Hwa's birthday and Yong has no clue why he has no note to read! Kkkkkkkk~ I love his childish smile when everyone started singing Happy Birthday to him. His smile. Aaaahhh. Such priceless, childish smile. It's like he's trying not to show it but he likes it very much. Kkkkkk~ Aigoo! This kid!

Funny thing that happened during the concert, Yong Hwa accidentally said "I love you Singapore." And then he was like: "......" And he can't stop smiling. Kkkkkkk~ Every time he smiles, I just feel like pinching his cute little chubby cheeks. Aish! This kid is driving me insane! Then he corrected himself and said "Filifin. Mistake" Aigoooo! So cute YongYongie!! Such a cute mistake! And then he kept repeating after "I love Filifin" and then Jung Shin also tried saving him by shouting "I love Manila!" Kkkkkk~ These kids, tho! I can't believe how adorkable you guys are! LOL. And I have to point out how Yong Hwa was making eye contact with the other boys as if asking for help because of his cuteee mistake! Kkkkkk~

They performed continuously and then after their song I'm Sorry, the curtains went down. The crowd started chanting for more and then the boys were back for the encore, now they're wearing the Blue Moon official shirt. I wanted to buy one of those but... Ugh! Issues!


Anyway, the concert ended with the song Try Again, Smile Again. I love how Yong Hwa sung the song with such heartfelt emotion. I believe he definitely is trying again and smiling again after what he has recently been through. I admire Yong Hwa for being a strong person. Whatever he has achieve now, I strongly believe that he deserves all of it.

Now, Blue Moon Manila has officially ended. The boys are back to Korea and are probably preparing for their next concert which is in Beijing. I hope I get to see them again soon.

Three years ago, I have hoped and prayed to one day see CNBLUE perform live in front of me.

Three years ago, I was introduced to a charismatic leader and rookie actor, Jung Yong Hwa. 

Three years ago, I started loving the person that is Jung Yong Hwa.

And now, three years later, I was able to finally see them and watch them perform with my own two eyes - no more fancams. I can't tell you how grateful I am right now. How blessed I feel.. How much I will cherish this experience.. I can't tell you how much this has made my life so much happier...


I made a promise to myself and to my mother to stop fangirl-ing after this concert. I will try to hold on to that promise. But this one thing is for sure, if I will be given the chance to see CNBLUE perform once again, I will grab that opportunity. I will forever be a Boice. I will continue supporting and loving these four boys with all my heart. My heart will forever beat CNBLUE.

Backtracking Equals Nostalgia

Reading my past blog entries brings back lots of memories: good and bad, happy and sad. Obviously, my blog has a lot of KPop stuffs in it because I was a fangirl once - a hardcore one. And re-reading it now, especially my birthday post for Jung Yong Hwa, I honestly feel somewhat emotional. I can't believe I've loved Yong Hwa that much and that long. I am still loving him until now but I have to be less obsessed. 

I can't really cry right now because I'm at work. But~ OH WOW! I have never expected that my life would be this much affected by just a single person - much more a Korean singer.

I'm starting my life today as a regular lady. I'm done fangirl-ing now. I don't know if I can keep up with this lifestyle but I'm giving myself the benefit of the doubt.

But one thing will never change, I am forever going to support and love CNBLUE's leader, Jung Yong Hwa. 

Blue Moon in Manila Press Conference


OH WOW! What a day!!

I can't believe I finally saw CNBLUE with my own two eyes! They were in front of me! And they look so PERFECT! Jung Yong Hwa seriously I LOVE YOU~!! MARRY ME JUSEYOOOO!!!!

I arrived at SM Megamall around 9:50AM and waited until the mall opens at 10:00AM. I was surprised to see that many people already waiting by the entrance. I wasn't really expecting a large crowd of early birds. 

When the mall doors open, the people just literally went crazy! They were struggling to enter the area as fast as they could and many were already pushing their way in. Luckily, I was able to get inside fast as well. When I went past security, everyone was running. It was a mad dash to the lower floor where the stage was located. 

I was thinking: "should I run as well or act more prim and proper and just walk calmly to my destination?" And guess what  I chose? YUP! THE FIRST ONE! I ran like I'm being chased by a cheetah!! Unfortunately, it wasn't enough. When I got to the stage area, the line to the entrance was already sooo long. Where did all those people came from?? 

And so I got a pretty far spot. And MY GOSH! The people around me kept pushing and it hasn't even started yet. Ugh! Why act so uncivilized people?? 

Anyway, I was already on my spot at around 10:15AM and we were just standing. No chairs aside from those for the press people. I stood there until around almost 4:00PM - the time when the boys arrived. No lunch break. No toilet break. Yup. I am a fangirl. And yes, I am alone so I can't leave my spot.

So, while waiting for CNBLUE to arrive, they started playing games. Then suddenly people from the second floor started screaming and pointing at something and we thought it was the boys already arriving but no it was just some overly excited fans.

But a few minutes later they're on it again, screaming and pointing at something. And lo and behold, this time it was actually CNBLUE arriving. Imagine the chaos that erupted when they emerged from the sides and walked towards the backstage to prep up. When I glanced upon Jung Yong Hwa, who was the first one to walk in, I felt my soul left my body. I think I stopped breathing for a second. WOW!

This time the crowd became so chaotic and hard to control. Everyone was screaming and shouting and people were pushing. Everyone was basically just trying to get in front.

When the four boys went up the stage, WOAH! I think they went deaf back there. The screaming went to a different level of highness and sadly the pushing as well.

Anyway, I can't believe I finally saw Jung Yong Hwa and the rest of CNBLUE. When they walked in from the sides, I wasn't able to contain myself anymore and I started screaming and spazzing and shaking and almost crying. 

OH MY GOD! 

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS FINALLY HAPPENING! 

After 3 years of loving and supporting CNBLUE, most especially Yong Hwa, I am finally given the chance to see them in person. Thank you, God~!!!

Yong Hwa is just PURE PERFECTION!! His face and his aura. PERFECTION, I tell you. His skin is soo smooth and white and just A-MAZING! His smile. Ugh! That smile will never fail to mesmerize me. I have never seen such a handsome guy. I felt like crying really. I just stopped myself because that would be  an embarrassing sight. JUNG YONG HWA, WHAT DO YOU THING YOU'RE DOING TO ME?? STOP BEING SO DAMN PERFECT!! IT'S BREAKING MY HEART!! (sorry 'bout the derp pic that I chose! kkkkkk.

They prepared a cake for Yong Hwa's birthday and everyone sang for him. He looks really pleased, right? Aish! This kid tho! Aigoo! We all know you're handsome, all right!


I wasn't able to watch much of their interview, because as I said before, everyone around me were pushing and I was starting to feel so weak and uncomfortable. I can't even see from my spot anymore because most people in front of me were freaking huge! So I made my way out of the crowd for some air and I swear my legs were about to give way. They were trembling, seriously. 

Then I moved to where they were supposed to walk through on their way out. Actually there were two ways and the guards placed a rope on one side and were telling the people to hold on to it and not block the way for the boys. So I stayed on that side hoping to catch a closer look at them on their way out.
But, guess what? It was a decoy! Pfft! They went through the other side. But I wasn't giving up so I ran quickly to the other side and YES, I was able to catch a closer look at Yong Hwa and his amazing side profile. I was stunned for a second before I notice the other 3 boys also making their way out.

They went through a VIP door, I guess. So that's the last I saw of them that day. But, boy was I so thankful for being given the chance to be there. Even with all the sacrifices - standing for 6 hours, no food and drinks for 6 hours, no toilet break for 6 hours - just that glimpse of them, of Jung Yong Hwa, I felt like all my worries and tiredness left me. I felt like this is it. This is right. Seeing them is right. Going here and enduring everything is right. I made the right choice. 

I felt so happy to feel the love and warmth Filipino boices are giving CNBLUE. I wasn't expecting a large crowd. Much more this HUGE crowd. I'm happy that finally, CNBLUE was able to see their fans in PH. Finally, they can feel the love we are and will forever be giving them.

I'm all the more excited for tomorrow. Concert day. D-day!

I'm expecting an amazing show from CNBLUE and I'm sure they won't disappoint. This will be my first and last K-Pop concert. After this, I have decided to stop fangirl-ing over CNBLUE and K-Pop in general.

Tomorrow is the day!

Good luck to CNBLUE and for everyone PH boice that's going, LET'S ALL ENJOY!

DAJUKJA!!


(pictures cr. to owner)

Saying Goodbye to Fangirl Life

Yes. I am definitely saying goodbye to the life of a fangirl. I am going to stop after watching CNBLUE's Manila concert. It's going to be hard but I made a promise. To my mom and to myself. I can do this!

I'm Making My Choice

I thought of leaving just like that. Thinking that this will make things better and that I will be better. I am going to a better place after all.

But. It dawned on me. 

I am not trying to go to a better place.

I am actually trying to escape.

I need to push myself harder this time and not give up that instantly. I don't want to give up just yet. I need to keep fighting still. There is nothing wrong with the place I am supposedly going to. But there is nothing wrong, as well, with the place I am currently at. I am just not thinking clearly.

I am working to reach a certain goal and for some reason I was derailed. I got distracted by the smallest things and now I almost gave up.

Good thing I didn't just yet.

I hope this is the right choice. I hope everything turn out the way God has planned for. I hope I can be stronger and never give up easily again.

I have made my choice to STAY. :)
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